Another First

Over the past few months, we've had a lot of "firsts" for Samantha and there is one first that I have been putting off for a long time. During my pregnancy, I was not good about going to see my mom at the cemetary and I do feel bad about it. On Sunday, I took Samantha for the very first time and we left flowers for my mom. Sunday, August 30th was the anniversary of my mom's death and this year brought a lot of mixed emotions for me.

We left her some pretty yellow roses from Zanotto's...Sam helped me pick them out.

On the way home, we heard a song on the radio which made me think about my mom and what it has been like experiencing life without her for the past 9 years. It is ironic because it is a Garth Brooks song and I don't particularly like Garth Brooks (he creeps me out for some reason).

Anyway, I thought I'd post the lyrics as I think that they are very appropriate.

Looking back on the memory of

The dance we shared 'neath the stars above

For a moment all the world was right

How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye



And now I'm glad I didn't know

The way it all would end the way it all would go

Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain

But I'd have had to miss the dance



Holding you I held everything

For a moment wasn't I a king

But if I'd only known how the king would fall

Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all



And now I'm glad I didn't know

The way it all would end the way it all would go

Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain

But I'd have had to miss the dance

Yes my life is better left to chance

I could have missed the pain but I'd have had to miss the dance